The Weight of Our Sky

This is my third time recently reading about the events of May 13, 1969. According to the official government report, 196 people died, many others were injured, and the vast majority of those affected lost their homes and belongings during the week long violence.

The thrilling story is about 16 year old Melati after the death of her father. She suffers from panic attacks and believes she is being controlled by a Djinn. The Djinn character really reminded me of Khawf in As Long As the Lemon Trees Grow. It constantly manipulates her thoughts and repeatedly shows her terrifying visions of her mother’s death. Melati spends every day trying to appease the Djinn.

One day, Melati and her friend Saf are suddenly caught in the middle of racial riots. Cars and buildings are burned, innocent people are attacked, and chaos spreads everywhere. During the violence, Melati and Saf are forced to separate, which only worsens her panic. Luckily, she later finds refuge with Aunt Bee’s family, who treat her with kindness despite the dangerous situation around them. The government announced a strict, immediate curfew. I found the scenes terrifying. People turned into madness because of stupid rhetoric, speeches and political ideologies.

This story, based on real events, felt just as haunting as reading about the Japanese occupation in Malaysian history. We may continue to speculate about the true underlying causes, but the fear and scars left behind still linger until today. Even though the book is quite short, the message gives you so much to think about long after finishing it. I also appreciated how the author explored mental health, especially because it was considered taboo during that era. Melati is such a brave character. I really love how the author portrayed her journey of survival, fear, grief, and healing all at once.

Perpustakaan Tengah Malam by Matt Haig

Nora Seed mengalami depresi. Ibunya meninggal dunia. Dia membatalkan perkahwinannya di saat akhir. Kucing kesayangannya mati. Cita-citanya menjadi perenang profesional, ahli glasiologi dan kemudiannya menjadi ahli muzik dengan band sendiri terkubur dan pada usia 35 tahun dia diberhentikan kerja.

Dari situ, dia mengambil keputusan membunuh diri. 

Namun bila dia membuka mata, seolah-olah masa telah berhenti dan dia berada di dalam sebuah bangunan perpustakaan. Rak buku yang tiada berpenghujung dan langsung tidak menunjukkan jalan keluar. Terdapat seorang pustakawan yang persis pustakawan sekolahnya dulu, Mrs. Elm. 

Mrs. Elm menjelaskan yang Nora berada di Perpustakaan Tengah Malam, di antara kehidupan dan kematian. Buku-buku di rak membolehkan Nora menjalani versi kehidupan yang berbeza.

Nora berpeluang menjalani dunia kemungkinan yang dia inginkan. Dia popular, dia dicintai, dia mencapai cita-citanya tapi semua itu tidak seperti yang dibayangkan Nora. Dia terasa begitu asing dan seterusnya tidak betah untuk berlama-lama di dunia kemungkinan itu.

Tema magical realism nampak mengkhayalkan. Kita pernah merasakan hidup ini tidak adil dan mengingini kehidupan sempurna orang lain. Novel ini mengajak pembaca untuk refleksi diri tentang pilihan, penyesalan dan penerimaan. Saya juga suka bagaimana penulis menunjukkan bahawa kadangkala kita terlalu sibuk menangisi perkara yang sudah berlaku dan terlalu takut dengan perkara yang belum tentu berlaku sampai terlupa menghargai apa yang masih ada di depan mata. Walaupun novel ini menyentuh isu depresi dan bunuh diri, ia tetap memberi rasa harapan. Harapan bahawa hidup mungkin tidak sempurna, tetapi itu tidak bermakna ia tidak layak untuk diteruskan. Dan saya sangat suka dengan pengakhiran yang Nora pilih. 4.5 ⭐

Not A Monster by Chua Kok Yee

5 ⭐s!!!!

Whenever I come across an underrated book that turns out to be this good, I always feel overwhelmed and do not want to finish it so fast. That was exactly how I felt while reading Not a Monster. I honestly wish this book had a sequel. What I loved most about this book was the mix of police procedural, the insight into how the police work, the peek into the perpetrator’s point of view, and the way it explores human nature in general. You can tell the author did a remarkable job of research on the subject matter. No wonder it was selected as a winner of Fixi Novo contest.

I am trying to keep this review spoiler free, but I was way too excited while reading, so consider this a tiny spoiler warning just in case. 😂 Inspector Nadra Sunau is assigned to investigate a missing child case. The disappearance creates panic in the community, especially after the media sensationalizes the case and starts linking it to supernatural elements.

The Shadowman resurfaces because of the similarities of the cases. The Shadowman dubbed by the media during a spate of missing-child cases. Before each child disappeared, their family had taken a photo, and in every photo there was a shadowy figure lurking in the background. Unfortunately, the children were found too late, buried in secluded places. And the Shadowman case remains unsolved.

One of the IO in charge was Inspector Dominic Wong. He was also handling another disturbing case involving young women who were raped and brutally murdered. With no DNA evidence and no murder weapon, the police were left chasing one red herring after another. Dom was the one who came face to face with the ingenious Shadowman!

I really loved how the two protagonists eventually crossed paths. Their different perspectives added so much to the story, and the author did a great job juggling multiple plotlines without making it confusing. The plot twist really gave me the goosebumps. 

Not a Monster is such an intriguing and well-researched crime thriller, and it definitely deserves more attention.